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Tuesday, September 25, 2007


I shall inform readers first, this is an angry post.

LAMBAST

You earn what you work for.

Utter, and I mean UTTER bullshit when it comes to a minority, from what i ve seen, could possibly be 'majority' too, of the elderly. The respect we are supposed to honour you with, what have you done to actually deserve that? From living decades longer than us?

For those of you who might think I am on some random provocative mood, let me tell you what happened to me yesterday. I was totally.. furious.

Old Ah Pek No.1.
I was seated next to this young lady on a bus which was, to some extent pretty full. But yea, there were still vacant seats around. There was one, next to the girl I was sitting next to. He squeezed himself onto the sit albeit in a rather crude manner. Not the issue. As bus trip got longer, common sense would tell you more people boarded the bus. It started to get a little crampy. Girl beside me decided to alight. Old Ah Pek decided to place his tiny weeny bag on the now vacant seat, depriving anyone any chance of placing their bums there. Considerate Act No. 1. I ll stop with Old Ah Pek No. 1 right now. There s more to his actions..

In between Old Ah Pek's inconsiderate acts, booom booom, Old Ah Ma/Rich Tai Tai came in.

Old Ah Ma/Rich Tai Tai
I decided to give my seat up for one elderly malay woman as Old Ah Pek still decided to ignore everyone's needs. As a result, I was pushed further and further into the standing commuters. Old Ah Ma/Rich Tai Tai boarded the bus. Pushed everyone one around, and I was pretty sure she was trying to truffle my feathers but constantly nudging me in the back, an action which probably meant 'excuse me i wanna get through'. PEOPLE WERE ALIGHTING, WHY THE HELL DID YOU NEED TO TRY AND SQUEEZE THROUGH? Nevermind, I beared the incessant nudges and kept quiet. This lady seated to my right need to alight the bus. She got up and spent some time before she managed to alight the bus. Just as the lady was alighting the bus, THIS Old Ah Ma/Rich Tai Tai PUSHED ME TO ONE SIDE, AND SQUEEZED THROUGH PEOPLE, BOOOOOOKED HER FUCKING SEAT BY PLACING HER TWO FLABBY ARMS ON THE SEAT. What else happened later on, anyone could guess. Before she placed her butt on it, she gave it two huge slaps to 'disperse' whatever heat there was. And next, she shouted at her maid, holding on to KFC takeaways, and told her to get a seat at the back and whatever whatever ya da ya da. Old Ah Ma/Rich Tai Tai, go get a cab for your own comfort, and spare us of your so irritating nudges and inconsiderate behaviour.

Back to Old Ah Pek No. 1,
Yes you inconsiderate bastard, I have not yet forgotten you.

My stop was reaching, and that was coincidentally his stop too. He got up, brushed past people, and pushed me. I was getting down at the same stop too, and my bodily behaviour made it very apparent. I even exaggeratted my movement to make it clearer for him. Still he pushed. And he pushed. The door opened. My foot was halfway going onto the alighting steps already. He squeezed his bloody arm right under my armpit and tried to displace me, so that he could alight. I tell you, ah. I totally BUAY TA HAN ed already okay. I stomped my foot, blocked him totally. Got down, turned and stared at him. He didnt notice it though. Fucking inconsiderate guy.

I was fuming. And even the drizzle did nothing to help my mood.

It reminded me of the times I worked as an observor, and was posted to a coffeeshop at red hill, which was hugely populated by the elderly. I could count DOZENS of old men, just sitting down and littering the floor with ciggs an hour or less. And that was within the a range of ten tables. The old ladies didnt associate themselves with ciggs ma, they disposed of tissue packs as if they were donating money to the masses.

Yiliang just showed me youtube video of an elderly auntie vigourously digging her nose for 49 whole seconds in the MRT. Regardless of the commuters entering and exitting, she went on digging. And flicked it around. Just youtube the title 'hardcore nose digging auntie' and it ll probably get you the video.

Now what have the majority of these elderly people done to gain whatever respect we ARE SUPPOSED to have for them? Such incredulous behaviour, am I not appalled and disgusted?

I say, why dont you old dudes earn it yourself.

P.S.: I am definitely not stereotyping old people here. I presented my case with real life experiences and I reiterate, this post is not directed to the awesome and good old folk around.

4:50 AM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007


The absurdity of sitcoms with the 'lah, leh, hor, loh's, promotion of childish behaviour, spoken 'engrish', and ridiculous plots and purposes. The naivety of drama serials, every famed actor/actress acts as a saint; they handle everything with calmness in mind, sweep frustration off with ease. Where the bloody hell is the realism of our society?

I ll stick to crunchyroll and youtube..

4:36 AM
Tuesday, September 18, 2007


Thanks for making my day unbearable. Im okay, Im okay, Im not angry or whatsoever.. Im just.. ...

Thanks for waking me up too.

Sugar we're going down swinging.

7:35 AM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007


Body is flux and frustration, a locus of pain and process. If it becomes impassible and incorruptible, how is it still body?-- Jeffrey Burton Russell, A History of Heaven

Those eyes..
I cannot forgive.

8:34 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007




THE CONSPIRACY/INVASION OF *********
Commander FYC (Main Seat):
We shall attack from ... Any problem?
Guanmeng : Gimme a minute, Im checking the bearings..
Changsong (Pink): I dont want to die young...
ChenZhiYu (White): Erms, mind if I ask? Can I eat Donut Factory's donuts before we go? I haven't tasted the seaweed one...
WooSeeAnn (Black Adidas Jacket): Baa, I need something more challenging..No kick, man.
YuZhe (Red): Are you sure...?*cowers*
JingRen (blocked almost entirely by YuZhe) : WeiJun! Am I even captured in the picture??
WeiJun: Yea, lah. Your hand's in. By the way, guanmeng, can I have more expression on your face?

Waiter : Basket, do these guys even want to order food? Manager! We have a problem..

3:42 AM
Sunday, September 02, 2007


Lachrymose behaviour I cannot deny.
Pellucid for all to see..

Okay dudes.. I havent blogged for a thousand years already. Alrightey, updates.

TODAY
Took some time out today to celebrate yuzhe's belated birthday with the clique today. The group of us were playing arcade and fooling around before we actually took to the movies. HAIRSPRAY was what we watched. Had mixed feelings about it. I wasnt feeling too comfortable with watching an obnoxiously 'plump', short, stout girl singing musical and shaking her booty all around. Even found it to be kinda revolting at times, especially when there s the vigorous movement of her arms and stuffs, you know, the ounces of flab shaking and wobbling around. Trust me, it isnt a very pleasant sight to be viewing in the midst of enjoying popcorn and Nachos. Anyway, I thought the girl provided pretty much comic relief for this comedy musical with a much deeper movie on discrimination and racism against people being obese or having different skin tones, or colouration. While it's of our own choice to actually enjoy the superficial comedy being shown or take some time out to ponder on the grave issues the movie was brilliantly bringing to our attention, I felt glad I chose the latter. There were short intervals throughtout the movie when I almost just stoned at the screen and thought of the racial discriminations ongoing right now. Yep. Anyway, HAIRSPRAY is a superb comedy musical everyone should catch. Yes, Im against racism.

A restaurant meal, and everyone was en route home. Candidly, I m feeling pretty braindead right now so please do not mind any lines that do not make sense.

On Facebook
You know, I was meddling with this Facebook application the other day, it's called 'Famous Quotes', and I found one which I thought was very interesting yet applicable to our lifestyles of present. It goes like this, "If you're going through hell, keep going." Yep, so guys, if you all ever feel down, despondent or whatsoever, try telling yourself this, and maybe, you'll find that you have the ability to strive on. Another meaningful quote, coming from Soren Kierkegaard ( I have completely no idea which country this person belongs to, lol), goes like this, "Life can only be understand backwards, but it has to be lived forwards." Very very meaningful, I felt. Im glad I actually added this application onto my profile page; it's proving to be a pretty awesome thing to be occupied with when you're feeling bored and random, and whenever you need that bit of motivation and inspiration.

Myself
I guess I gotta stop all the procrastination and really get down to mugging. I am not going to let anymore people down. Really.

7:53 AM